Love Affair

Love Affair

This ongoing love affair with my beloved has consumed me to the point that nothing’s left the depth of my surrender is absolute I want or need nothing else then her she is so close that she completely annihilates me and it is perfectly clear I never was apart from her...
Deep dark

Deep dark

I am so submerged in the deep dark that I find it impossible to smile since there is no happiness here neither any kind of sorrow just this impersonal sense of exceptional peacefulness with everything just as it is, always exactly that, perfection which is clearly...
How Everything is Love

How Everything is Love

One of my fellow participants on a retreat with Jeannie Zandi once told us about her devastating childhood and it touched me to the core. The abandonment and loneliness of her story reminded me of my own childhood and it killed me. I couldn’t get over it. I didn’t...
Dissolving

Dissolving

This dissolving into love-shit isn’t pretty my beautiful serene ‘spiritual’ face distorted into every human emotion imaginable small and childish they come and take me robbing me of all my arrogance there is nothing anymore I can claim to be above ridiculous all my...
The not knowing

The not knowing

We are in uncertain times, and what we can learn from these times is how to be with not-knowing. When our usual routine gets interrupted, we realize that we cannot take anything for granted. Our lives can change completely in an instance and our illusion of safety...